Megavideo/upload has been taken down by the FBI. Conveniently after the SOPA and PIPA bills were protested by nearly all of the internet. Thing that sucks about this the most is, most of my dvd & cd buying decisions are based off "sampling". Especially most, if not all, my foreign media. How the fuck am I supposed to buy a show not made in my country if I can't watch it first? What if it's shit? Also old shows from the 90s the company either saw no point in releasing on dvd or itunes. Why can't I watch them? I get the anger over pirated stuff, that the media can't make money off of. Or artists who are still starting out really need the money. But the average consumer also doesn't want to pay out the ass for a movie, show, or cd that isn't good. They fork out this crap and expect us to like it. Also when a foreign film gets bought by an American company. Say my chinese movies. I found out...they've been edited!! It's not the original movie. They take scenes out because they feel their either unnecessary or too long, and pass it off as the original. That's why I either get my films from chinese shops or online. Also the big screw up the american company did with Let the Right One In. Did they give a shit? No!

So may be if the media companies didn't look past quality to dollar signs. They would realize you can't keep treating your audience like idiots. Some of us have brains and want our money's worth. Makes me want to move to Canada.

On the rare occasions that I post nowadays, I've been trying to keep me LJ posts, personal life-only. While keeping my tumblr posts, random-only. You know, being intranetz hip and everything. I also have been trying to tone down my long rants about stuff on here. However, this is something that I really want to blog about.

Peter Coffin. A grown man, mind you, who's computer savvy. He created a fake japanese g/f by the name of Kimi Kobayashi. Even before I read the whole thing the name itself sounds fake. It sounds like a fucking comic book character. I know very little Japanese, but I've never seen "Kimi" used as a name. In fact its an informal way of addressing a person. But given the douchebag can't be bothered to notice the pictures he used were of a KOREAN girl...

Anyhoo, he gets exposed after teasing a popular blogger named Xiaxue about her plastic surgery. She blocks him to stop the harassment, but he then uses his fake g/f's twitter/facebook/whatever, to keep up the bullying. Xiaxue does some research, finds out his dirty secret, and posts all the evidence on her blog. http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2011/03/peter-coffin-is-loser.html

It doesn't end there. He gets the obvious reaction from the online public. He then proceeds to act as a lawyer and threaten Xiaxue under a law that doesn't exist through email. She calls him out on that nonsense as well. http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2011/03/peter-coffin-is-his-own-legal-team.html


[–]anachronic 23 points 9 months ago

If this isn't a MASSIVE wake up call to get a real life, he's almost better off killing himself... how fucking sad is this guy that he's unemployed, sitting around his crappy apartment, attention whoring himself on youtube and twitter all day, flirting with his made-up girlfriend and pretending to be a lawyer?

Grow the fuck up, Peter. Get a goddamn job and make some friends.

(Seriously says about how much is missing from Peter's life that he retreats almost completely to the internet. I've had and still deal with self-esteem issues. So I can see how an adult would resort to this. Does he have anyone in his life who cares, he quit his job to try to become a youtube celeb? Or that he makes up a fake relationship? He puts his face on all his sites, so it's not like any irl friends wouldn't find out about it. The only conclusion is there is no one.)

[–]anchovies_unlimited 12 points 9 months ago

This is extremely harsh, but somewhat true. In that really sad kinda way. We just have to hope that he hides out for a while, and then hopefully emerges with a new and better identity that doesn't revolve around deception and mockery.



[–]anachronic 1 point 9 months ago

Hey man, life is harsh.

Sitting around alone in an apartment making holocaust jokes on twitter to your fake girlfriend is absolutely deserving of mockery.

The best way to help "insulate" against being relentlessly and viciously mocked is to be less of a total loser. Acquire skills, make some friends, maybe get a job, read a few really good books, say intelligent shit occasionally, take up an a cool hobby... it's not making racist jokes about the bombing of Nagasaki to your fake online "girlfriend"

edit: this should really all be common sense for anyone over the age of, say, 11.

((As much as I don't like internet bullying, I agree with this. Chris and I have stated it so many times, people NEED consequences. Children and adults. The internet decreases the lessons we learn in life. Hate sites, supposed "freedom of speech", screennames, it all takes away any personal responsibility a person normally carries. Who's going to punish you? Who the hell even cares? This man took to the computer, with the sorry life he has, and used it to try and bring an innocent woman down. In fact he brought down another woman Lee na Young. Who's pictures he's used, in many disgusting ways(some I don't want to think about). He deserved it all smashed in his face. He would have been fine to continue his lie, had he not attempted to bring Xixue down to his level. Although many don't like her, find her shallow, or a bitch. They applaud her for doing what she did. Because it furthers the theory that those who bully are full of misery. They have nothing better to do. I'll be the first to admit, when I was mean to kids I was angry and unhappy with myself.))

[–]polynomials 9 points 9 months ago*

Not that a girl would never say those things, but there are seriously very few girls who are that awesome and that hot. Unfortunately I've found that awesomeness (how interesting and/or not-a-heinous-bitch she is) is inversely correlated with hotness. It's a scatterplot, but its one you can hang your hat on usually.

Now, I won't say that in my lonelier times I haven't indulged some pretty detailed fantasies, but I never even considered for a second letting anyone in the world be allowed to discover that I had concocted such an imaginary person, let alone go fucking public with it. It's like at every turn you could see how she was constructed into a mental RealDoll, so perfectly for him to fap to.

[Warning, if you read this you are going to see some racist/sexist things but they are just simplifications of people used as springboards to create fantasies, not actual attitudes that people necessarily operate by in real life].

He spent hours scouring the interwebs for an Asian girl who definitely looked distinctly foreign (like most Western men he has at least a bit of yellow fever, but when your only interaction with women is in jpg or flv format, it can get little exaggerated), but not the kind with the weird haircuts and teeth and eating smelly foods all the time, also with way bigger tits, but still skinny. Also no one famous or recognizable because that would A) ruin his own fantasy because then she would resemble a real person who was not what he wanted and that he could never believe he had a chance with, and B) give the lie to her online persona.

She is also foulmouthed comedian who is funny (according to him) and can match him shot for shot, and indeed relishes the banter between them, where most women would find it unseemly or embarassing. She is a self-deprecating Asian, just like he is a self-deprecating Jew, except when people who are not part of their race get too presumptious. So enjoys the good racial joke, but she's smart about it, ya know? She is "endlessly contemplative" and "humble", etc, (I want to vomit rereading that part). She developed her sense of humor from being a person who felt ugly on the inside- an ugly duckling who blossomed into a beautiful swan, but maintained her sense of humor and irreverence for society's rules.

In other words, she is what he thinks are all the best or defining parts of him, or the parts about himself he wishes were true, and none of the parts he doesn't like about himself. But instead of a chubby Jewish dude, she is a hot Asian with natural tigolebiddies. Kimiko is an uber-Peter, but that people actually want to fuck. You can tell this because besides the pictures and vagina-talk there is nothing really recognizably feminine about her in the way she talks or her attitudes. Contrast that with her hyper feminine image- all of the parts of women he likes, none of the parts that find him gross, ie, the personality of every woman he has ever met. This is because Peter stopped imagining that a real woman that hot would actually want him. But best of all, their similarity is why she recognizes his value and is devoted purely to him, and Peter counts himself lucky to have found such a rare specimen- his busty Asian doppelganger.

It's like he made a Mary Sue that he could have sex with and pretended she was actually real. This is like a seminal moment in the internet. Like, I want to say he created a Kimiko rather than a Mary Sue.

((This user deserves an award. I wondered why the hell he made her sound so vulgar. I can be vulgar, and make stupid guy jokes. My bff who's a model can do that too. Yet, the way he had her talk was too ridiculous. Like a skank who was trying to hard...or someone completely fake. I asked Chris if he can picture any asian girls from his anime club speaking that way. His answer was no. I doubt even the most self-hating asian would make the remarks he did. As Xiaxue states, "Any girl that posts that many pictures of herself, would be nothing other than self absorbed.")))


I can picture this guy, awkward irl. Not good with women, possibly barely tolerable to other guys his own age. You know that friend who you put up with because they're occasionally a good guy, but you'd rather not spend more than a few hours with? A few youtube videos generate a small fanbase and he takes it as his calling. Promoting his self-image through various websites to sell his special brand of humor. He wants friends and a girlfriend who "gets" him. Who'll laugh at his lame jokes, want to be around him, build up his ego. Also I wonder about his mental stability.

I think any adult who's been caught doing this would retreat or cop to it. Instead he cries victim, and continues his stream of lies. Because either it's too late to admit he lied, or his narcissism won't let him. He's built this fantasy that he's more well liked than he really is. That he can fix his online image if he keeps it up. He tries to shut Xiaxue up by pretending to be a lawyer. He starts up a blog, pretending to be a random supporter of himself. He last resort, tries to plead his case to masses, without taking any blame. He reminds me of that scene in Stephen King's Rose Red. The cast is fleeing the house as it comes tumbling down on them. One character chooses to stay behind to "finish her work" as she puts it. Even though another character pleads with her to leave she slaps him and tells him to leave. Everything is exploding, shit is falling, yet she stays there scared, but determined. The look on her face is both of a madwoman and someone terrified of failure.

That's what I think this is. Whatever Peter Coffin has going on outside the online world he doesn't want to face. Because that means he's failed in both worlds.

1. Describe Myself In One Word: Introvert

2. Post a Picture of Myself: I have already.

3. How Many People I Follow? How Many Followers Do I Have?: I don't follow people online that much anymore. No one usually follows me.

4. My Biggest Insecurity: My Looks

5. Any Tattoos or Piercings: Ears are pierced. I have 2 tattoos.

6. What Would I do if I Won the Lottery: Already blogged about that.

7. What Do I Want to Be When I'm Older: Happy with who I am and retired.

8. Where Would I Like To Live: I've got my eye on Canada.

9. When Was the Last Time I Cried Really Hard: After the car accident and computer crashed.

10. If I Drink/Smoke/Do Drugs: Yes, Yes, and.......

11. My Favorite Quote: It takes two to lie. One to lie and one to listen. -Homer Simpson.

12. Any Weird/Hidden Talents: I have none.

13. Is There Anyone I Would do Anything For: Yep, but that's a secret.

14. An Idol: I have fashion idols, like Ayumi Hamasaki.

15. Celebrity Crushes: Haha, tons.

16. My Relationship Status: Taken.

17. Ever Cheated on Someone: Never.

18. Have I Ever Had My Heart Broken? Have I Ever Broken Someone's Heart?: Yes and Yes.

19. My Idea of A Perfect Date: Food, movie/tv show, and a night on the town.

20. My Idea of A Perfect Mate: Dependable, rich, strong, handsome, nice, smart, and funny. Of course no one is perfect. So I love the person I love just the way he is.

21. What I Find Attractive In Members of the Opposite Sex: Let's just say physical appearance wise. Eyebrows. Not bushy or unibrows, but defined, active eyebrows. Blue or light brown eyes. Dark hair and smooth skin. Beautiful smile.

22. What I Find Attractive In Members of the Opposite Sex: Basically anything that I don't have, lol. Exotic, but not warped looking women. Usually if they're mixed they catch my attention.

23. If I Believe in Long Distance Relationships: I believe they work for some. People are all different and I truly think some couples out there do well the less they see each other. They don't have to cheat to make it work. They love each other at a distance.

24. If I Believe in Love At First Sight: I believe in fate and attraction. Love? No, love takes time to occur. Unless you're psychic and can instantly know everything about person the moment you lay eyes on them.

25. Top 5 Turn ons and Turn Offs: On-Funny, intelligence, geeky, cultural, massaging. Offs- Flithy, lazy, no work ethic, super geek, hates cats.

26. Top 10 Fav. Songs: Bizarre Love Triangle by Neworder, Like A Friend by Pulp, A Dream Worth Keeping by Sheena Easton, Woman by WolfMother, Eternity by Dreams Come True, Hometown Glory by Adele, Tonight Tonight by Smashing Pumpkins, Disarm by Smashing Pumpkins, Together by Alan, Last Kiss by Bonnie Pink. I don't really have favorites, I listen to so much music. But that's what comes to mind.

27. Top 10 Fav. Animals: Cats, Dogs, Guinea Pigs, Hamsters, Foxes, Wolf, Monkeys...I can't go on. I don't have fav animals.

28. Top 10 Fav. Movies: Hot Fuzz, Lolita, Howl's Moving Castle, Knocked Up, Let the Right One In, Phone Booth, The Grudge(Remake), The Victim, Shutter(Thai ver.), A Little Princess.

29. Top 10 Fav. Actors/Actress: Leonardo DiCaprio, Jet Li, Kate Winslet, Joseph Gordon Levitt, Gary Oldman, Kimura Takuya, Will Smith, Rizwan Manji, Hideaki Takizawa.

30. Top Fav. Bands/Musicians: Utada Hikaru, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Refused, Dreams Come True, WolfMother, The Black Keys, Franz Ferdinand, Smashing Pumpkins, Asian Kung Fu Generation, The Pillows.

31. Top Fav. TV Shows: Hero, Sweet Relationship, Corner With Love, Love Generation, Daria, X-Files, Law & Order(SVU/CI/UK), Peep Show, The Inbetweeners, Big Train. I love many, many more tv shows than this.

32. Top 10 Places I'd like to Visit: Japan, Germany, England, Ireland, France, Switzerland, Hawaii, Amsterdam, Denmark, Iceland.

33. Top 5 Things I Couldn't Live Without: Music, tv shows, internet, family, friends.

34. Top 5 Fav. Blogs: I don't read blogs anymore.

35. Top 3 Fav. Accents: British, Irish, any type from New York. Why? The best accents to hear ppl swear with.

A super quick update on what's been happening. I'm happy at my new job, have been there for about a year. Chris is working at a job he enjoys and making a decent wage. I'm addicted to HBO's Game of Thrones, True Blood, and Boardwalk Empire. We are getting ready to move once again, into a townhouse! Yeah baby! I've recently discovered the joy of downloading tv shows on my ipod. Going to Montreal for our 6th year anniversary. Got into comic books recently. I really like Tim Drake. Canada is fucking awesome! That is all.

There's really not a plan in motion. More like, once Chris gets his passport we're driving up to Canada. I don't know what we're going to do or see. I do plan on eating Canadian food. Other than that I want it to be completely random. I'm really excited for us to just take a trip up there. Although he did give me his usual gripes and moans about there being no point. He doesn't really have the drive to just GO places. It doesn't matter where, just fucking, get out there and see the world. See it twice, see it thrice. I don't want to already have kid and not be able to just take a day off and cruise.

I get irritated sometimes, when people ask me what I'm going to do with my life. What my plans for the future are. Or if I plan on doing this job forever. I feel like I'm being looked down on. It hurts even more because sometimes I look down on myself. I had the good career, the high paying job. I wouldn't mind having that again. I would like to live in a house, drive a decent car, and have enough money for kids. Isn't having a job enough anymore? Doing whatever you can to put food on the table and NOT be a leech. Even if the job is waiting tables, cleaning bathrooms, or whatever. I have pride like everyone else. I want to go to college one day, but I feel doing my best at my job is important too. I don't need people looking at me, knowing my age, and thinking, "What are you doing here?" I'm surviving. That's what I'm doing.



In other news, I got a new pair of headphones. I go through headphones too much, but these ones actually turn at the speakers. So when I lug them around in my purses or wear them to sleep, they're less like to crack. I still haven't worn make up regularly since last April. I'm trying to go easy on my skin. Not so many products and washing it good. I own quite a few skin care products, but I hardly use them. I'm focusing more on evening my natural tone, since I'm going without make up.


I wish I had done more to earth day.

In my random search of things on ONTD, I came across a post about this kid beating up a bully. Some poor soul was being tormented for 3 years and he took a stand. The bully and his posse decided to torture this kid and record it on a camera phone. Sad they feel a need to record their bullying like it's a great conquest. So the kid being picked on ended up throwing the little shit to the ground after taking a few punches in the face.

He ended up becoming an internet dubbed hero over this. The bully became an internet joke and target.

I haven't gone through the entire post, but I wanted to do a post about it a few comments I saw.


((Teachers didn't protect this boy, pacifism didn't protect him, not reacting didn't protect him. He protected himself. Why should he have to keep suffering so a few pacifists can sleep better at night? He didn't instigate the situation. And what does the kid who felt he had the right to punch this boy in the face being smaller have to do with anything? Maybe he should have thought about the consequences of his actions, oh that's right, we don't believe in consequences, because they might hurt someone's feelings.))

This was in response to someone who said that glorying the violent actions of the kid being bullied isn't a good thing. They thought the kid deserved retaliation, but not being thrown on the ground. They also mentioned they were a pacifist which is why they think that. I agree with the pacifist that glorifying the violence isn't good. To me that starts up the mob mentality that the kid should not only be slammed on the cement, but kicked in the head, beat with a bat, or even worse shot in the chest. It's not just kids who develop this train of thought, but adults as well. Evident by anti-whatever the bully's name is facebook pages. Grown adults saying disgusting things about a child, a horrible child, are no better than him.

As for the response I agree with it even more. If no one is welling to help you, you HAVE to help yourself. This may be the misanthrope in me talking, but sometimes people give the human race too much credit. There has to be a point when you take your own mental & physical health into consideration. In this kid's case he never fought back until now. He was at the point where wanted to to end his life. Anyone with a brain knows the people have natural reactions to danger and distress. When you get scared enough, you defecate or piss yourself. This is the body's way of making you lighter to run away. You witness something horrific, you mental repress it or go catatonic. This your body's way of protecting your mind from going crazy. I could go on, but this kid did what's commonly known as "seeing red". Meaning your pushed to the edge and you go into a rage. Your body attacks whatever is attacking it. We're taught in order to live in a functioning society we have to fight or primal instincts and think about what we're doing. Truth is most people don't think. That includes little brats.



((But let's be real. Schools are horrible at addressing bullying. It's often a kid's only option if they want the harassment to stop.

when nobody else will stand up for you, sometimes you need to stand up for yourself.))

Schools and bullying go hand in hand. No matter where you go, someone at some school is being bullied. Some faculty don't care, some do. The trouble is what I've mentioned in my last post. Parents not listening to reason, ignoring what their child is doing, and trying to make the problem "go away". Bullying is done because of many reasons. The little jerk wants an outlet for his rage, wants to fit in, or has mental issues. It could also be he was bullied himself. Either way, the person who should help put a stop to it the most is the one being bullied. I know that sounds harsh like that. A child being bullied needs to be helped by ADULTS, to defend themselves. Most bullies aren't going to attack their victim in front of an adult. They're going to wait for them somewhere, harass them over the internet, or follow them. Usually adults have an easier time ignoring bullies because they have too much other shit to worry about. If some idiot was harassing me over facebook I'd just hit the block button after telling them what for. Or I'd just call the police after collecting evidence they won't leave me alone. Kid and teens have nothing better to do. Young bullies spend most of their time planning ways to torment. So their victim needs guidance on how to handle it.


((nope.
he could have walked away.

bullies continue to bully when they get the reaction they want.
if you don't give them a reaction, they will get bored and move on.

the kid should have told a teacher or his parents, which he probably didn't.
most kids don't tell anyone because they're afraid, embarrassed or have been threatened that if they tell anyone they'll get it even harder))

Except that's what this kid has done for 3 years. 3 years of turning the other cheek while contemplating suicide. Is death another way of walking away? It's true that bullies want a reaction. Some will get bored if you ignore them and find a new target. If they don't you can only walk so far for so long. They'll just find new ways, more crueler tactics to get you to react. I was in a situation where I lost it and wanted to attack the guy who was bullying me. My friends held me back and I'm happy they did. A teacher pulled me into the office to tell her who was bullying me. I felt like I couldn't. She said we'd go through the entire yearbook until I confessed. I was about to and I saw my tormentor's cousin staring at me. She shook her head not to tell. So I didn't. May be I was a coward, but I didn't ask to be harassed. I appreciated the teacher trying to help me. During that time I was so unhappy with myself, in a way I felt like I deserved it. I didn't want my friends to think I was weak. I was slightly afraid of him.


As my b/f once said, talking only works when the other party is willing to listen. My bully and I could have been brought into the guidance counselor's office and tried to work things out. I could have asked him why, why me, what did he get out of it? I already knew, he was idiot who made himself feel good by picking on me. He had nothing better to do but stand around with his friends making fun of people. I wasn't his only victim, so I know this to be true. There's not always a motive, some teens are just big fucking jerks. I could be they take a lot of shit at home from their parents, so they turn that around to students because that's how they deal with it. Not many kids are going to acknowledge that fact. They feel their not being serious and the problem is everyone else.

((Fun story: we planned on pressing charges, so my dad called the local police station and told them the situation. The officer was all, "well, the scissor thing wasn't a DIRECT threat" (she said to her friend with her scissors snapping side my earlobe "do you think I should stab her? do you?" apparently, not direct enough!)

My dad just stopped and said to him, "so you're telling me, if I walked into the classroom with a baseball bat, slammed the baseball bat on this girl's desk and said, "hey Steph, should I beat this girl up with this baseball bat?" you wouldn't have me in handcuffs in 2 second?" and then the cop got all flustered.


Sorry for the rant, but it just makes me so mad how much effort it took for me, as the victim, to get any justice. I can only imagine what other kids must have to go through.))


That was win.

I'm on an SVU marathon and it really increases my desire to adopt. Even though it's just a drama based on news articles, this show hurts my heart. It makes me not only want to adopt, but be a good parent in general. I have no idea what it takes to be a "good" parent. A decent one I'm well aware of.


Consequences: Kids need consequences. They need to learn throughout their life the world isn't always nice. It seems like the parents nowadays are trying extra hard to shield their kids from anything they deem cruel and tough. While at the same time being oblivious to the power of the internet and how much their child will have to struggle when they get older. Now how a parent treats their kid at home is between their family(unless it's abuse). What they don't seem to get and what is help making society such shit, is they think everyone else should treat them the same way. Somehow a good deal of them are getting away with it. You grow up and learn how to adapt to society. You learn manners, respect for elders and authority, how to listen to someone other than yourself, and how to socialize in general.

If my kid drove his bike over our neighbors lawn and the person gets mad and screams at him, I think that's a well deserved lesson. I don't get why there's a need to march over or call the neighbor for harassing the kid. The lesson is respect someone else's property. If the person yells at my kid, I know he cares a lot about his lawn. Now if he threatened to bash his head in, then I'd have a few choice words.


Respecting Authority: If my kid is talking back to their teacher I wouldn't put up with that either. A teacher is one of the first authority figures outside of the family a child spends time with. Some parents have it in their head teachers are baby sitters and school is just one big playground. Having to deal with that many kids, raised different ways, it's a damn hard job. The sad thing is in America teachers are given less and less authority over their students. If the parent won't set rules, they expect the school not to either. How can I expect my child to succeed as an adult, if they can't listen to someone other than me or their father?
A kid who sees the parent convincing teachers that they need to treat them a way the parent feels is correct could harm them more. Teachers should be allowed to punish children to show them that adults other than their parents can do that. A parent has a biased view on how a teacher should treat their kid. If my kid is acting out, doing strange things, or whatever, I will follow what they teacher says. Schools were created to teach and to nurture the minds of kids to ensure they can survive in this world. If a teacher wants to go the extra mile and develop a good bond with my kid, I'm all for it. But I know that's not really their job. I just want to make sure my kid isn't an idiot.

Bullying: On one hand, being bullied is horrible thing. It can damage a child for life, but it can also teach kids everyone you meet isn't going to be your friend. Hard, cold, truth, when you go out into the world, there's going to be people who'll take advantage of you. Or make things hard for you because they don't like your face. It's all up to you to find a way to deal with that. A little kid shouldn't have to experience it so early, but as a parent, I want them to know how to deal with it. If this happens to my kid, I truly hope it doesn't until they're teens. Which sounds crazy because teens are crazy period. But at least they can keep some innocence.


The Internet: Ugh, unless it one day explodes and ceases to exist, there's no shielding from it. Well, I guess if you're amish or something. I vaguely remember a time when people weren't as stupid as they are now when on it. The only sink holes were chat rooms and a few forms. Mostly people had their little websites and such. Now thanks to social networking(HUGE double edged sword) people can ruin each other's lives all with a click of the mouse. Now people who you've never met across the globe can bully, stalk, and laugh at you. I spend a lot of time on the computer, but I don't want my kid to. Most adults can't even handle online communication without starting drama, flamewars, misunderstandings, and harassment. It's all too much to put in a kid's hands. As I've witnessed from the shocking and sickening things teen and tweens type. Because there's little, if no repercussion. They can say the most racist, disturbing thing to someone and not feel a thing. They can't see how they've hurt the other person. The net lets people say things they normally wouldn't in public. And sometimes I feel thankful for people like Anonymous who can track down someone who's been a tool and teach them a lesson. Although they usually save their energy for pedos, animal abusers, the scum of civilization, and trolling fun. They have been known to make it a fact how easy it is to get someone's info from just their screenname. An internet "aquatint" of mine learned that fact when she got into it with these people on a forum. Within a pages they hacked into her email getting hold of her address and telephone number. This is info I pass on to stupid brats who try to get into it with me. Because if I was a parent, I'd sure as hell be pissed to get a bunch of pizzas, bibles, phone calls, and stuff at my house.


I want them to experience more about the world. Be responsible, kind, and open minded. Learn all the different languages they can. When they're teens I want them to want to work. To have good work ethic, have confidence, and make trustworthy friends. I've gone through so many scenarios in my head about what I'd do if this and that happened. I'll never be quite sure.

So Chris got his computer. I might do quick updates here and there. But I'm waiting until I get my own computer. Since the old hard drive still has my pics, info, music, and etc. Now to continue with the subject.



When I was 15 or 16, I just made some really cool friends. I never had friends like them before. I was invited to a birthday party for the 1st time in years. I was so excited and happy to be hanging out with them outside of school. From what I remembered about birthday parties, everyone got dressed up, looked nice, and ate food. From what I saw on tv, teenage parties had some drinking and flirting. So I wore a short skirt sun dress. I had my sister curl my hair. I put on my best make up and heels. My mom drove me to my new friend's house. Everyone was already there. I went in and I was the only one dressed up. All my other friends, including the birthday girl, were in regular jeans and shirts. I was so embarrassed and they didn't hide the laughter very well. They got to jump on the trampoline and I didn't. All I could do was either stand there or sit there because of how I was dressed. I did get pity compliments, especially from the mothers that were there. Which embarrassed me even more. I never asked them when I got older about it. It's just one of those teenage moments of social awkwardness. I didn't know how to behave around them yet.


If I had a time machine, I'd stop myself from dressing up. Not so much to "fit in" for the sake of fitting in. It's just that I had so many moments in my teenage years, I think one less might be nice.


On a side note, I got to hang out with my younger sister Izzie yesterday. I haven't seen her in years. I hope to hang out again soon.

Life's not fair. Of course it isn't, I just wish it would spread out the unfairness a couple of years or so. After our collison, the computer has decided to die completely. Didn't even have time to burn my 40gigs of music to cds and who knows how many pictures to dvds. I've been super depressed about it. So the Geek Squad is on the case, even though we'll still basically need to buy a new computer, because XP doesn't exist anymore!!!!!!! Chris and I sometimes ask each other, "Why us? What did we do to deserve this shit?" I think I must have been a terrible person in my past life. Or my ancestor had some curse put on them. Bet it was the Irish side.


Well, I don't know when I'll be blogging again. Wish me luck.